Spirituality is a very important part of my husband's and my life. It is something that we never knew we needed, until we experienced the power of it for ourselves. It is always guiding you and the more open you become to the idea of it, the more doors open for you.
We were living our everyday lives in society, running on that ever turning hamster wheel of "life". We did the same thing everyday, and were programmed into thinking- well this is life. This is what everyone does; this is how you succeed; this is how you make something of yourself and your future. This is life and its pretty good. That's what we were told; that was our predetermined mindset. Little did we know, all that was about to change. A whole new idea of thinking came into play.
Myself, things came into perspective rather quickly growing up. My father passed away when I was 12, and my maturity level and spirituality had begun to grow. I was raised Catholic, but began to question my religion. As I began the internal battle of my own belief and what I was told to believe, my own spirituality grew. I started slowing down and realizing that life is short and to enjoy the experiences and gain memories- because at the end of the day, that is what makes our hearts beat. Fast forward 20 years, and my mom passed. At that time, I was married with young children, 2 of which were only 6 months old. Immediately, I went into the mindset of "How am I going to do this without my mom? I got 4 kids.. I need my voice of reason.. I need direction.. I need strength.. I need help (the only kind that you get from a mother)". I started thinking, "what is this all for?", "what are we doing?". At the same time I'm also thinking "what if this happens to me?", "what would my kids do?", "how will they make it through life without their mom?". Fear and anxiety started overwhelming me. The "what-ifs" were beyond cumbersome and starting paralyzing my everyday. Soon my Hamster Wheel seemed to be turning faster, so fast that I couldn't keep up. I started reading Self-Help and Spiritual books, which helped in opening my mind to focus on the Now, the present. Understanding what you can do Now, to better your future and the future of your family. Those books presented a different way of thinking, and honestly I shook my head in pure awe reading them because they are very basic ideas that were never discussed or taught to me. Life is hard, but life shouldn't be this difficult. Strip down all the layers and realize why you were put on this earth. That reason is different for everyone. I can't tell you that reason, but everyone has their own path. If you think about it, were you really put on this earth to work 70% of your life just to make money to try and gain the next best thing thats better than your neighbors? Conditioning teaches you that, but is that the real goal? What is the point of literally busting your rear all day everyday, and constantly being told or judged on the fact that you are not good enough in your career or your social life. Like why? Why the constant competition? Isn't there more to life?
About a year later, after I was doing whatever I could to better my current life, (meditation, yoga, cleanses, burning sage, trying to be more social, trying to get past my anxiety to take the kids out of the house to experience new things), nothing was really working. My life was "perfect", but I always thought there is something else out there, there has to be. This can't be it. I can't be at my end game, I'm in my 30's for god sakes. There has to be more.
Meanwhile, my husband (unbeknownst to me) was going through his own "come to Jesus" moment. We were both doing what we were programmed to do; doing what we thought was the only path of life, and doing it well. Yet something was still pulling us in another direction.
Because of my spirituality and how I was open to it at pretty much a young age, I would every now and again receive signs. I always chalked it up to it being my dad, popping in saying "Hi!", not thinking much about them and going on with my day. Also more recently with my mom passing, same thing happening. Lights flickered, Tv turned on and off, the occasional Cardinal or butterfly in the backyard. Typical signs from above. My husband on the other hand, total skeptic. Saw those same signs and always had to debunk them somehow... Until it happened to him. And kept happening to him. It's like he woke up one day and was clear and open. Signs from above gradually happened for me, through decades of time. Yet, different signs from above pretty much smacked him in the face over night. Specific numbers kept coming up, songs on the radio pertaining to specific things happening in present time would come on, foretelling dreams, things would casually just pop into his head and then later in the day it would be presented to him in the form of a conversation or interaction with someone else. He felt as if he was going crazy. Upon more research, he began to understand somewhat of what was happening and finally took that skeptic shield down. As he was more open, more signs from above came.
So how did both of these things that we were going through translate into "Off Grid"?
Well, we took a weekend trip just the two of us to the Mountains. We stayed in a beautiful cabin that was in a quiet area surrounded by forest. That weekend changed our lives. We went hiking, explored new things, and spent quality time doing things together. A sense of peace came over us as we stared out the window of the cabin, looking down the aisle of manicured lawn lined with trees on either side. And all I said was "how do we make this a reality for our family?". The next sign that was about to come solidified that decision for us.
When we first started dating, one of our first getaways was in a similar type house in the same state in which we currently were. It was beautiful, and quiet, and simple. That morning we woke up, ground and brewed our own coffee, and played some music on the Alexa. I'm sure my husband was trying to impress me with his wealth of musical knowledge, so he requested "Alexa, play classical jazz." It came on and we danced in the kitchen, drinking our morning coffee. And it was perfect.
Fast forward to this weekend getaway.. and as I asked that question to my husband, I turn my head and see the record player. Below the player was a bookshelf of albums, and the first album facing me was titled. "Classical Jazz". We immediately we put that album on, closed our eyes and remembered back to that time when we fell in love, while drinking our morning coffee and having a dance embrace in the kitchen.
When we got home from that trip Sunday night, everything snowballed with ease. Monday morning, we went online and found land that we wanted to look at. Friday, my husband drove up to walk it, and by Saturday we were under agreement. Signs during that week were very prominent. Special numbers, radio songs, randomly finding my husband's lineage the next town over (our property is on the town line), and probably the most important sign that week was the neighbor's address next to that property in the adjacent town was the number of my mom's house and our last name as the street name.
There were no hick-ups during that purchase process. Because of the time of year and wanting to have some sort of shelter before winter hit, we decided on purchasing a prefab cabin to build from the inside out. We looked at a few different options, going back and forth between companies, and realized there was yet another sign. I took a bunch of pictures of the cabins and pricing on my phone, and as we were going through them we noticed this particular cabin's price was our lucky number, our address number for the property we bought, and our purchase price of the property. Right down to the cents. We were like yes! This is it, this is the one.
It seems like Signs guide us constantly in the right directions for what our souls need, we just have to open our eyes and look. They are right there all the time, just waiting to be acknowledged. The more signs you see and accept, the more you will see.
Never in my life have I been more certain of this decision that we made. And that it is right for my family. Spirit guides you, open your eyes and see.
With Love & Light,
Kelly
looking forward to this journey with you! Thank you for sharing!!!